Where is my future?

I always wonder, how it would be if I'm doing this, if I'm doing that.

Knowing that it will not become as what I expected myself to be, but this is how I always think...

Be myself!
Although while being myself I will lose myself too since sometimes I'm too considerable about others, sometimes I'm too forgetful!

Yes!

I do, because I'm keeping myself to think wise and living with the best happy mood as I can.

Somehow, it doesn't work since I got too many works to do!
My schedule is about work, work, work and work.

No matter how hard I try, still couldn't beat my inner-self.
While I'm working harder, my employer expect me to work much more harder.

While I need a rest, my employer expect me not to rest!
Am my life suppose to be like this? I'm trying to make a change, but I was worried too much and failed to bring myself to keep the balance in between work and my rest.
Am I suppose to stop now, or I suppose to move on?
Am I suppose to accept this, or I suppose to give-out?
Am I suppose to think twice, or I suppose to go ahead without thinking?
I've lost too much of precious time on my career, however without my career I couldn't move on my life.
My goal, is to get my dreams come true and to meet my goal, I need to work!!!!
Seriously, I need a break!