Addiction to DF is killing me?! D8<

"What is DF? You're a freak! Never know you'll love this, girl!" My friend said it with his expression on his face =.=''
If you're a game freak, you'll know what's it mean~

Uh uh... What is DF? Dependent Film? Disk Free? Diet Freaks? David Fernandez? Wait! Who is David Fernandez? O.O I don't know him~
Wait... let me do this...

Dependent Film, Disk Free, Dead Fantasy, Diet Freaks, David Fernandez...

Did you got it? It's Dead Fantasy! *throws confetti* Oh well, quit talking about rubbish~ *sweats*

Does any of you know "D.O.A" (Death or Alvie) and "Final Fantasy" ?
Yes, [Dead Fantasy] is another master piece from Monty Oum, a terrific incredible artist~
You can find his artwork at here.
Actually, I'm praising him and I found him few years back... Because he made my favorite characters from [Final Fantasy] and also from [D.O.A] into awesome videos~
I'll stop at here since I can't keep on bla bla bla about him by some of you might not knowing what am I talking about~
Instead, I will show you the videos~ I addicted to it like... I watch it once every week and really, I love it very much! xD
Of-course all these video doesn't belongs to me, it's all credited to Monty Oum~ ENJOY <3

此刻，你心里想起谁。。。？

Once in a blue moon, wanted to add a Chinese wording post into my blog. I'm not in a good shape now so I will not translate this post, maybe next time.



此刻，你心里想起谁。。。？
是的，很熟悉对吧！这是一首来之我最仰慕以及崇拜的偶像，王力宏的曲子。
其实， 跟我的心情没什么关联。只是，我真的在想。。。
此刻，他的心里想起谁。昨晚也一样，很难入眠。心里的感觉像是柠檬的味道一样，酸溜溜的。。。
大约在床上翻来翻去了两个小时才进入梦乡。
真的很难入睡的我却又在睡醒之前梦见了他。
是他把我叫醒，我很想继续梦见他但我无法再进入同一个梦里面。就这样，心也是和昨夜一样酸溜溜的。。。
生气的狠狠的赏了自己一个耳光! 讨厌自己为什么忘不了他，对他又爱又不能爱。。。
我也突然发烧了，有那么巧合吗?! >.>
在这时。。。他在MSN里出现了，而且还和我谈起话来。
这。。。这是什么嘛~ 我的心也就这样忐忑不定了一整天。。。 T.T
说真的，明知道不可能就别勉强。。。 我也很坚持的，专注于自己的忙碌。。。
那又怎样！他还不是在我的脑子里面阴魂不散！
我真的越来越讨厌自己，为什么为了他弄得自己一整天没好好的过。。。>.>
拜托，别来烦我了啦~ 我想自己一个人好好的过。。。
不过还是自己的错，因为啊~是自己想得太多。。。 xD

Draw With Me~

I was watching this video over and over again today, it just suit my mood today. This video link was sent to me twice from a very important person who're living apart from me. Despite our distances and separation, this V.I.P always cheers me up, makes my day. I'm so lucky to met this person and I would like to say thank you to my V.I.P^^ Thanks for being such a caring and lovely person~

"Anti-socialism" call for me!

As the tittle said...
What is "Anti-social"?
According to the definition in Cambridge dictionary, it means: harmful to society/often avoiding spending time with other people.

Base on the first point: Harmful to society! Nah~ I'm not a smoker, not a drunker, not a beggar, not a terrorist, also not a member of rebels so yes! I'm not harmful to society.
Second : Often avoiding spending time with other people! Eh....?!

I'm a person who're love being alone and very , ridiculously, overwhelmingly avoids spending time with peoples around me face to face but, I do keep in touch with them using communication tools such as cellphone, messenger, email and forum.
Does it mean I'm an anti-social person? I'm struggling with this easy and yet complicated question.
I'm not talkative when I meet any peoples around me and most of the time I feels just don't want to talk but I'm a good listener by nodding head by saying :
" Hmm, I see.. Ah~ That's why... Okay... Understand..." xD

But I became talkative while talking on the phone, or talking to my siblings and my best friends by asking :
"Hmm, I see but why? Ah~ That's why but... Okay but maybe... Understand so..." XD
What's wrong with me? I'm a strange person or am I a person who're with minor multiple personalities disorder? =/



*Laughs out loud* Any way I just come to the conclusions... I'm just hate to being asked by these questions such as...
"Hey, how are you doing?"
"What are you doing recently?"
"Where is your boy friend?"
Argh~~~ D8 It makes me repeat my answers again~
"I'm doing good, thanks for asking."
"Nothing much lately."
"I'm single." >.>
Just imagine, you're eating instant noddles three meals a day, everyday.... =.=''

Next, my second conclusion is... I'm afraid of social with strangers, a person that difficult to reach by anyone even my family.
I don't wish to let anyone walks into my world, knowing my nervousness, touching my sadness, voicing my thoughtlessness, manipulating my toughness.
I'm tired and decided to stop at here. If I found another conclusion, I will do post it again^^

A Sleepless Night...

It's odd... When you're snuggling on your comfortable bed with your favorite blanket after a tiring day, you'll fall asleep in seconds most of the time...
That is how I feels most of the nights but tonight, there are some memories flashing back in my mind like playing a movie in-front my eyes.
Again, I'm feeling so lost... Not only that, the feelings that I've forgotten and left behind was once hugging every inches of my skins and whispering inside my heart.
Like a movie player, clicking rewind button...
Watching at all the scenes with you and me as the starring,...
From strangers to friends, as a friend and became a closer friend and even became a lover but at the end, we're back to the beginning as strangers.
I was trying to flush away all my nonsense thoughts but it seems like not easy...
That's what made my sleepless night tonight, my recipe...

The recipe: With 10 pieces of my memories, 8 liters of your voices stirs it with 4oz of my smiles then pour into a heart shape mold gently, adding some sweet promises as the topping then bakes it for minutes.

However, I forgot the timing of baking it and my recipe is failed which mean, I'm the failure.
Failed to got rid of your promises,
failed to shaken off your sweetness,
failed to forget your gentle,
failed to threw away those pieces that you'd occupied inside my heart.
Knowing that you've suffered from many relationships but I did not do my best to loves you and made you disappointed, is my greatest of regret in my life at the moment.



I'm listening to the music that we love, it's sweet and sour like a glass of lemonade.
I can't deny myself that loves lemonade so much and nowhere to blame at.
Yes, I accepted the faith like you've told me and trying to be an independent person like what you've advised.
Thank you, for gave me such precious memories. I'm cherishing for what am I having now^^

The Born of S.A.M.I.S.M.E

Yes, I moved from Zen D World Blogspot.com~
As I said before at Zen D World, I had finally moved it to a brand new place!

<S.A.M.I.S.M.E > SAM IS ME > Sam Is Me @ www.janeyisme.blogspot.com

I'm feeling so happy to continue blogging! Wish me luck!
Cheers for the new blog!

Bravo! Yahoo! Banzai! Monami! Woohoo!

Customize MSN Scene II~

Again~ I made a brand new MSN scene with one of my favorite anime character~ [Kateikyoushi Hitman Reborn] The Vongola Family!


From the left to the right~ Dokuro Chrome, Rokudo Mukuro, Hibari Kyouya, Sawada Tsunayoshi, Reborn, Yamamoto Takeshi, Sasagawa Ryouhei, Gokudera Hayato & Aldult Lambo...







I might make something new again but I guess, that's all for this time^^

The Power of Dream~

Yup, I was making a signature with vehicles as a theme and the below is my work using Toyota FT-HS1 as my render.



Woot! I can feel the fire is burning xD

Customize MSN Scene~

Gosh~ I made my new MSN scene~ I love it~
In it with my favorite characters in my favorites anime list~
From Left to right~ Kuran Kaname [Vampire Knight] , Lelouch Vi Britannia [Code Geass],
Light Yagami [Death Note], Kandan Yu [D.Gray-Man],
Lockon Stratos [Gundam 00], Hijikata Toushiro [Gintama],
Himura Kenshin [Rurouni Kenshin]...
But it is imperfect, because Kuran Kaname [Vampire Knight] the most left side character been covered by my own display picture...




By the way my display pictures is one of my favorite character as well..
Suou Tamaki from anime [Ouran High School Host Club].
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Sigh~ nothing is perfect in this world, though...

OMG! My Baby!

OMG! My Baby!
Opps... No, this is a photo of mine while I'm still a baby XD
It's blur but hey, I found myself so cute and chubby when I'm a baby^^
As time goes by and I'm growth up... Hey, look at this photo!

I got four teeth only?! What the! >.<'' I wonder how may years old am I while taking this photo^^ Lol... Looking at this photo and I realized~ I'm a fat baby XD
Mommy told me... When I was a baby, I eats chili without shed tears and ask for more XD
What a spicy baby was I! xD Hmm... Many years ago eh?

VIP... update???

[Click the picture above to enlarge it]

Woot! A random again XD Yay for Rurouni Kenshin!
I made this signature using a vector theme...
Somewhat like... I'm phailed T.T




Well, I need to have some free time to make some new signature!
Next theme... hmmm... maybe Bleach? lol
I don't know but a VIP asked me to update my blog so I randomly do it xD
Geez... Thanks VIP, you made my blog updated T.T

My... my...

Gah~~~~ This is me... don't ask me to upload more photo of mine...
Because I'm so not pretty and cute, bear with me xD

P/s: Take your own risk, I will not take any responsibility if you throws up or lost your appetite to eat because of my photo XD

I made a Naruto's signature^^

[Click the picture above to enlarge it^^]

Crap!

I'm busy and forgot to update my blog T.T Argh~~~~~~~~~
Allowed me to shouts in my blog XD
All these days getting better, at least I'm not alone anymore like the past^^
Oh and... so lovely because I got some time to watch Astro on Demand XD
What did I do beside watching drama? Hmmm... watch anime XD
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Monday :: Skip Beat Tuesday :: Gundam 00 Wednesday :: Bleach
Thursday :: World Destruction Friday :: Soul Eater
Saturday & Sunday :: Astro on Demand XD
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An episode a day, my stress go away~^^
An apple a day, my doctor broke right away~^^
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Yep, football fever but sad, I can't stay up late night to watch the matches...
Even without me, MU pwn all XD
"Glory glory ManUnited..." Go go go~ Go go go~ Manchester United!
Sorry, I didn't have photos for these days, if you want I can do a snap on the drama and anime that I watch daily XD

D.N Angel...

Alright... I am doing such a random again?
Teehee~ No I'm not^^
I'm just have done a new wallpaper , Anime name:: D.N Angel =D

[Click here for 800x600 Wallpaper :: D.N Angel]

Optimus Prime ???

I was listen to Hitz.fm radio while driving to college in this morning and lol... when I heard the below from the Hitz morning crew...

Crew: "Okay, tell us, who do you like to transfer and why"
Anonymous: "Umm... I will like to transfer my daddy to be Optimus Prime so that he can transforms and roll up!"




That's hilarious!
I can't imagine my own daddy to be Optimus Prime XD
I wanted to say is... Brilliant! I love Optimus Prime^^
Ma dedeh izh Optimus Prime...Optimus Prime for the win^^

Hey dude, If you're my son and I will roll you up like Optimus Prime can do XD

Wee~

Eh...? What's happening? Nothing special^^ I am just feeling happy because I made a wallpaper! Hooray!

[Code Geass :: Lelouch & C.C]

If you wish to get size 1600x1200 wallpaper , here is the link^^ Click here.

Italiannies~

Lol... It's foods again XD Eek?! What's wrong with me?!
Oh, it''s just because I am still alive, of-course I need food to survive.
Look, it's just a dinner and I considered it's not an outing so... be prepare to drools^^
Oh, what did I have for my dinner today? Umm...
"Italiannies! Italiannies!Italiannies! Italiannies!
Dearly sisters again keeps begging me to go for a dinner >_<'' I have no appetite to eat but forced too T.T So we went to The Gardens ~ Italiannies. Oh no... traffic jam and we begun our journey on 6Pm and we reached at 7:30Pm. What the... And my sisters made the order... "Spaghetti, pizza, pie..."

[While awaits for yummy, serves this^^, free of charge XD]

[Then, bottomless Ice Lemon Tea Rm 6.90 ($1.90 USD)]

[Classic Cabonara Spaghetti (bacon, mushroom & cream sauce) for 4 person, Rm 47.90 ($13.30 USD)]

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[Smoked Salmon Pizza (salmon, gorgonzola cream sauce & onions), Rm 27.90 ($7.70 USD)]

[Cappucino Pie (frozen coffee & vanilla ice-cream on Oreo crumb crust with chocolate sauce), RM 13.90 ($3.90 USD)]

O_O Can we finish it? Yes we did, and the bill is Rm 129.00 ($35.70 USD) *coughs*
I am broke after this meal XD
Then, I sneaks to get my favorite Green Tea ice-cream again after the dinner^^
Woot! Can't stop my love towards Green Tea Ice-cream!
That's all for today^^ *claps hands* I am off to bed now XD

Can you be my wings?

[Click here for the large size image]

He told me... "Even loving each other, doesn't mean physically have to be together if their hearts is binding together..."

First, I was believe it's true and then he continue...
"Will you give up so fast? I know that i wouldn't give up so fast. I will continue to fight against the destiny until it separates us personally..."

"I wouldn't give up so easily but..."
I wish to tell him about this , he didn't give me the chance to say it...
He is sad and emotionless after his heart had suffered so many painful relationships...

"I was thinking why must life not be a fairy tale... Because it isn't a fairy tale. If we keep thinking it is, reality will break it. So we must accept it as reality, overcome the traps and obstacles that is in our way. I don't want to give it up right here..."

"Can you be my wings? Let's face it together and fly over as many obstacles as we can..."

Did he said... he wouldn't give up? I heard it, and it isn't a promise so i got to accept fact.
I didn't give up but he did it, it's hurt.
The broken wings with the broken hearts, all we need is being alone.
At last... Reality did broke the way and we had separated.
It's been few months, how did you doing? Silly, I didn't brave enough to talk to him even a "hello"




Happy Holiday!
Happy Birthday!
Merry Christmas!
Happy New Year!
Happy Chinese New Year!
Happy Valentines Day!
That's all i wanted to greet him...
"May you be the gem of the happiness, the stars will shines over you^^"

Chinese New Year - 5th Day Outing

Wee~ Yesterday is a great day for... random XD
I was wanted to stay at home but my dearly sisters keep begging me almost an hour just for an outing.
Lol... Yeah... so i am going out with them, together with her boyfriend as well, that's why i called it as... random day^^
Oh yeah, haven't wash the car and it's dirty... XD

[Randomly "dirty" car]

So we went to The Gardens and surprisingly... no traffic jam and tons of empty car parking lots^^
Steps on the escalator, to the Ground floor and wow...It's so beautiful^^ random as well, because i love pink color XD





Meh... my both sisters decided to go for a lunch, Japanese foods^^
Actually we wanted to have a lunch at Sushi Zanmai but I don't want to be there for some reasons.
Then we went... to Pasta Zanmai! Nani?! O_O Zanmai again?! Boo... Zanmai is so popular nowadays^^
After orders been taken and I am off to Shoujikiya Japanese Shop to buy my favorite ice-cream with only Rm 5.90 ($1.60 USD)
Yummy! I had finished off the ice-cream before the foods place in front of me XD
Okay, what did we had for our lunch? We had.... Lol... I will show you the photo instead of introduce to you^^

[Meiji Green Tea Ice-cream]

[Gyuniku Garikku Pasuta(Beef Pasta with Garlic), it's tasty^^]

[Shake Shashimi (Salmon), this photo taken after my sister ate 2 slices of it XD]

[Set Unagi Don, Yup! This is my favorite^^]

[Special Ice Green Tea, can't describe how special it's...]

[Yaki Gyuniku Set with Miso Soup (Grill Beef), salad and rice]

[Chicken Teriyaki set, the unusual one, i didn't eat any like this before XD]

Tada... This is all the foods we ate for the lunch^^ Paid the bill... Total : RM 100.00+ ($27.60 USD)
So we are full^^ and we walks to Lazo Diamond to buy a ring to myself...
*lightning strikes and rains falls on me* Why there's no body gift me a ring? T.T
Well, i got no mood to choose one and turns away to Jusco... Buy nothing XD
Then we heading home and this is the moment i hate the most during pick up car...
Parking ticket auto pay machine, it's so annoying...

[Please pay displayed amount... Please pay displayed amount...]

Argh!!! Shut up!!! I wanted to slam the auto pay machine at that time >_<'' This outing is really bored... Is this consider an outing? I am not sure XD but yeah, i am too random on that day and what now?

[Lipton Red Tea XD Randomly bought it while picking up car]

Chinese New Year - 3rd Day Outing

Yesterday, a day reunion with my buddies during this Chinese New Year.
7 persons gathered together but i am the one and only lady O_O Eek?! What?! A lady with six other guys?
XD Yeah, that's my buddies...

We went to have the first 3hours spending on the Karaoke session at Sungai Wang Green Box
(>_<'' We're suppose to be at Pavilion Red Box+ and changed the location due to the timely manner) With only MYR 11.00 ($3 USD) with bottomless drinks and one potion of lunch each person. That's incredibly cheap ever^^ and the lunch is yummy as well, lucky! Okay, during the sings session i was realize that... Oh my! O_O I am totally out from all the songs because i didn't listen to the Chinese hits music for long T.T I can't believe i didn't know any song from the list that they had chosen and ended up they dedicate some songs special for me^^ Ended up I am the fan that shouts and claps hands at the corner of the room "la... la... la..." That's the only tones i know to sings Lol...

[Our Room for seven person^^]

Next, we went to a Hi-tea. where to go?
Though of i can get my favorite Starbucks and gosh! Raining! T.T
Forced to take a seat at Coffee Beans Cafe and started our chats session in the next 3 hours before going for dinner.
I got a regular potion of drink, Belgian Chocolate and noooooo... x_x'' It's taste ewww... for me!
I should choose Esprit Raspberry juice since I love raspberry so... much^^
During the chats, we talks about how we meet, why we're here and so on...

[Belgian Chocolate Ice Blended]

*Rings* Oops, 6pm^^ Time to go for the dinner at... Kajang!
Seriously, i never been there before and woot!
That's not right to have satay for dinner! *sniffs*
I though i can have a seafood dinner XD
Well, i got no rights to complaint at my buddies^^ "Chicken 30, Beef 10, Deer 6, Bunny 6, Lamb 6..."
My buddy made the order and i was...
Oh my! I can't believe they eats the meat of Deer and BunnyO_O
I lost my appetite after a though and i ate 4 sticks of chicken meat satay only.
We spend almost another 3hours because raining as well... *sighs*
One of my buddy came back from oversea and we had a "Q&A" for his life during he is oversea.
He was told us about him, and we found that he is really in the deep of depression "road"
We decided to give him a 2hours "therapy" Hmm... Hope and wish he'll gets better^^

[This is Satay...]

What? Another 3hours? We're... playing mahjong but i am still an00b, i got a master to teach me how to play it.
That's goes my 12hours outing for my day of yesterday and finally, i got my time to online^^

I was told my buddy...
"Human being must work, when you're not competent, learn it..."
"When you're competent, then do it yourself..."
"When you're not familiar, practice more..."
"When you want to work, start immediately..."
"When you're poor, work all the more..."
"When you're rich, work harder..."
"If work is done wrongly, correct it..."
"When you're old, enjoy working more..."
Because he is now working and facing the most hard time in his lifetime...
Well, hopes this Chinese New Year brings him a very great luck ever, wishing everyone happy and smiles always^^