There, 2011 is coming to an end...
Friday, December 30, 2011
My summary...
Thursday, November 24, 2011
Am I?
I was so excited whenever my alarm is waking me up, telling me it is time to work!
However this doesn't last long for me...
Nowadays, whenever my alarm is waking me up, I feel like "Argh! I Don't want to go to the field!"
I clearly know why my feeling towards my beloved office, has fade away.
Because, my bosses lost the faith on me and so do I...
They judge, no! They didn't judge but their narrow mind set judged me. It slowly and unconsciously pulling me away from my performance stage.
Just because of my innocent actions that made a few misunderstanding in between us. Which I personally though that my boss should have trust me in a way, that I am working with him, team up with him and he is my boss, he is with me, together we reach the goals that given by our boss.
After yesterday, I realized, I am not suitable to be here, this is a place that I shouldn't begin with.
I was love my job very much!
I love my team mates!
I love my bosses!
I love my company mission statement!
I love my colleagues!
I love my customers!
But, night mare didn't stop since my father past away.... Since the beginning of my new role assigned by my boss.
I have no experience, I have no chance to get a proper lead, their expectation on me is just too high just because they do not know me well, they dont know what I'm working on during the days that they have not joined company, and at the end...
Screwed up my appraisal, rating is suck until myself can't believe myself is that suck in working out my role.
I have been told that I need to learn the logical way that as a boss will think...
In my own perspective, I think that it's just because I couldn't find the logical as they said, that's why I'm still not capable to work as a management officer.
Am I wrong to have a though an actions like that?
Am I?
I didn't say anything to anybody but to talk to my own blog...
Dear blog, wish me luck! I want to fly away with colors!
Friday, November 11, 2011
It's Not My Fault When...
I was such a fool~ Work for money~ Work for live~
Thursday, October 6, 2011
I want to REST!
I was working hard for so long~ really long...
After I served as an employee after a year, I took a 7 days rest within 2 weeks...
and I continue to work hard, even Saturday...
I know, I'm not self-center but my physical and mental are both tired!
I can't perform anymore if I keep working like this...
I request, a reasonable one, a proper rest day with an outing with my friends...
I can't believe I got questioned like a prisoner!
Enough is enough, I work for live, is not live to work...
I didn't sell my life to you, honestly I'm still working to the best as I can!
I got pressured by customers, by boss and now you came, you too giving me unneeded pressure!
If you think that I'm not deserved it, just do whatever you like to kick me out will do.
My life is still okay even without you, please bear in mind!
Regards,
From the very disappointed worker
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Work vs Word
I choose to work, but I didn't choose to get scold.
No matter how nice the word I choose. still it can't help me with my work.
I manage my word however my word didn't work.
My work knocking me off with the word they used.
What should I do? Continue?
I admired and love TVXQ and JYJ so much!
I'm keeping myself to be strong like them!
They've been trough so many obstacles and they're still facing their new obstacles every minutes and every seconds.
Compare to them, mine is just a small stone!
I must keep my self work very well with my own word!
Fighting! Fighting! Fighting!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Where is my future?
I always wonder, how it would be if I'm doing this, if I'm doing that.
Although while being myself I will lose myself too since sometimes I'm too considerable about others, sometimes I'm too forgetful!
My schedule is about work, work, work and work.
While I'm working harder, my employer expect me to work much more harder.
Am my life suppose to be like this? I'm trying to make a change, but I was worried too much and failed to bring myself to keep the balance in between work and my rest.
Am I suppose to stop now, or I suppose to move on?
Am I suppose to accept this, or I suppose to give-out?
Am I suppose to think twice, or I suppose to go ahead without thinking?
I've lost too much of precious time on my career, however without my career I couldn't move on my life.
My goal, is to get my dreams come true and to meet my goal, I need to work!!!!
Seriously, I need a break!
Monday, June 13, 2011
难念的经。。。
人生,有很多选择。。。就是父母亲不能选,兄弟姐妹不能选。。。
Sunday, May 15, 2011
My blog... My Diary...
I though I was long forgotten about my blog, but it seems like I often coming back without update it... It's my bad that my blog has lost its use as a blog while I did not return to types some alphabets on it! iPhailed!!!
It's been, almost a year... Since I started my career path, I've abandoned my own interest;Watch anime, listen music, active in forums, update blog, drink hot chocolate, cook breakfast and many more... What a big lost while I'm doing my job passionately at the same time I forgot about my own happiness unconsciously. In another way, I learn a lot! I met a lot of peoples, I face a lot of obstacles, I went trough a lot of issues... but I enjoyed it! From colleagues to friends, from friends to family...
I was once met a bunch of crazy peoples!
~They were my best partners in 'crime' xD We laugh together, sing together, eat together, drink together, sleep together, shout together, cry together, dance together! It was fun but soon I realized that, we will change. I'm glad that we're not changed dramatically, but change for our own good sake. They were so lovely and they're now a good couple! Wish they stay happy together!
~They were my best teammates xD We were in training together, went trough test together, answer calls together, work together, complain together, share our stories together! It was fun but soon realized that, our paths are different. Luckily each of us has found our own path and continue to shine. They were so nice and sweet peoples that we went trough hardship period! Wish we will continue to shine!
~He was such a good manager to me, he leaded a brighter future to me, to let me have a good future. We were so busy and went trough a lot of our first time! First time meeting with leaders, first time training with leaders, first time organize an event together, first time became emcee together, first time succeed a promotion together! It was fun but soon it ended, he went to another place for his good sake and I continue to walk my path, continue the task that has been assigned to me since we're a team.
~My beloved father, the most important person to me in my life... He went to a place that far away from me... Up to the high sky that i cannot reach, to watch me shine... Dear father, I love you so much! Although it was only twenty years you take care of me, but for me it's an eternal and the greatest love ever! You are such a 100% good father to me! I miss you so much! Every time when I'm down, every time when I'm lost, you will appear in my mind, to tell me to be strong, continue to walk my path and to make you proud! Thank you so much father! For being someone, who love me so much, please protect me as always! Father, rest in peace... I will be here to let you watch over me...
Here was my update for whole the year, so many happening, so many changes, so many happiness and so many sadness. I guess, this is the most memorable year ever...
Now I got a new manager, and also a team mate, soon will have more team mates. However because of my lake of public relationship skill, my presence has been erased by my own team mate and my manager as well. I'm wondering, will I still able to continue the path that my previous manager has believed in me. Hope that some day my new manager will see my performance and result. I'm tired, really tired... I'm so weak that I let others to erase my presence easily. I hope I can do better...
Now I got new friends, friends that really concern about my everything, they smile and cry with me! I don't know if they will be my best friends forever, I hope they will be the one...
Now I got new interest! Swim and gym! I prefer swim though, I can wear my cute swim suit!
The end of this post, is my most terrible high fever day... I hope I will come back to update more often, not to let my blog feel lonely =)