Addiction to DF is killing me?! D8<

"What is DF? You're a freak! Never know you'll love this, girl!" My friend said it with his expression on his face =.=''
If you're a game freak, you'll know what's it mean~

Uh uh... What is DF? Dependent Film? Disk Free? Diet Freaks? David Fernandez? Wait! Who is David Fernandez? O.O I don't know him~
Wait... let me do this...

Dependent Film, Disk Free, Dead Fantasy, Diet Freaks, David Fernandez...

Did you got it? It's Dead Fantasy! *throws confetti* Oh well, quit talking about rubbish~ *sweats*

Does any of you know "D.O.A" (Death or Alvie) and "Final Fantasy" ?
Yes, [Dead Fantasy] is another master piece from Monty Oum, a terrific incredible artist~
You can find his artwork at here.
Actually, I'm praising him and I found him few years back... Because he made my favorite characters from [Final Fantasy] and also from [D.O.A] into awesome videos~
I'll stop at here since I can't keep on bla bla bla about him by some of you might not knowing what am I talking about~
Instead, I will show you the videos~ I addicted to it like... I watch it once every week and really, I love it very much! xD
Of-course all these video doesn't belongs to me, it's all credited to Monty Oum~ ENJOY <3

此刻，你心里想起谁。。。？

Once in a blue moon, wanted to add a Chinese wording post into my blog. I'm not in a good shape now so I will not translate this post, maybe next time.



此刻，你心里想起谁。。。？
是的，很熟悉对吧！这是一首来之我最仰慕以及崇拜的偶像，王力宏的曲子。
其实， 跟我的心情没什么关联。只是，我真的在想。。。
此刻，他的心里想起谁。昨晚也一样，很难入眠。心里的感觉像是柠檬的味道一样，酸溜溜的。。。
大约在床上翻来翻去了两个小时才进入梦乡。
真的很难入睡的我却又在睡醒之前梦见了他。
是他把我叫醒，我很想继续梦见他但我无法再进入同一个梦里面。就这样，心也是和昨夜一样酸溜溜的。。。
生气的狠狠的赏了自己一个耳光! 讨厌自己为什么忘不了他，对他又爱又不能爱。。。
我也突然发烧了，有那么巧合吗?! >.>
在这时。。。他在MSN里出现了，而且还和我谈起话来。
这。。。这是什么嘛~ 我的心也就这样忐忑不定了一整天。。。 T.T
说真的，明知道不可能就别勉强。。。 我也很坚持的，专注于自己的忙碌。。。
那又怎样！他还不是在我的脑子里面阴魂不散！
我真的越来越讨厌自己，为什么为了他弄得自己一整天没好好的过。。。>.>
拜托，别来烦我了啦~ 我想自己一个人好好的过。。。
不过还是自己的错，因为啊~是自己想得太多。。。 xD

Draw With Me~

I was watching this video over and over again today, it just suit my mood today. This video link was sent to me twice from a very important person who're living apart from me. Despite our distances and separation, this V.I.P always cheers me up, makes my day. I'm so lucky to met this person and I would like to say thank you to my V.I.P^^ Thanks for being such a caring and lovely person~

"Anti-socialism" call for me!

As the tittle said...
What is "Anti-social"?
According to the definition in Cambridge dictionary, it means: harmful to society/often avoiding spending time with other people.

Base on the first point: Harmful to society! Nah~ I'm not a smoker, not a drunker, not a beggar, not a terrorist, also not a member of rebels so yes! I'm not harmful to society.
Second : Often avoiding spending time with other people! Eh....?!

I'm a person who're love being alone and very , ridiculously, overwhelmingly avoids spending time with peoples around me face to face but, I do keep in touch with them using communication tools such as cellphone, messenger, email and forum.
Does it mean I'm an anti-social person? I'm struggling with this easy and yet complicated question.
I'm not talkative when I meet any peoples around me and most of the time I feels just don't want to talk but I'm a good listener by nodding head by saying :
" Hmm, I see.. Ah~ That's why... Okay... Understand..." xD

But I became talkative while talking on the phone, or talking to my siblings and my best friends by asking :
"Hmm, I see but why? Ah~ That's why but... Okay but maybe... Understand so..." XD
What's wrong with me? I'm a strange person or am I a person who're with minor multiple personalities disorder? =/



*Laughs out loud* Any way I just come to the conclusions... I'm just hate to being asked by these questions such as...
"Hey, how are you doing?"
"What are you doing recently?"
"Where is your boy friend?"
Argh~~~ D8 It makes me repeat my answers again~
"I'm doing good, thanks for asking."
"Nothing much lately."
"I'm single." >.>
Just imagine, you're eating instant noddles three meals a day, everyday.... =.=''

Next, my second conclusion is... I'm afraid of social with strangers, a person that difficult to reach by anyone even my family.
I don't wish to let anyone walks into my world, knowing my nervousness, touching my sadness, voicing my thoughtlessness, manipulating my toughness.
I'm tired and decided to stop at here. If I found another conclusion, I will do post it again^^

A Sleepless Night...

It's odd... When you're snuggling on your comfortable bed with your favorite blanket after a tiring day, you'll fall asleep in seconds most of the time...
That is how I feels most of the nights but tonight, there are some memories flashing back in my mind like playing a movie in-front my eyes.
Again, I'm feeling so lost... Not only that, the feelings that I've forgotten and left behind was once hugging every inches of my skins and whispering inside my heart.
Like a movie player, clicking rewind button...
Watching at all the scenes with you and me as the starring,...
From strangers to friends, as a friend and became a closer friend and even became a lover but at the end, we're back to the beginning as strangers.
I was trying to flush away all my nonsense thoughts but it seems like not easy...
That's what made my sleepless night tonight, my recipe...

The recipe: With 10 pieces of my memories, 8 liters of your voices stirs it with 4oz of my smiles then pour into a heart shape mold gently, adding some sweet promises as the topping then bakes it for minutes.

However, I forgot the timing of baking it and my recipe is failed which mean, I'm the failure.
Failed to got rid of your promises,
failed to shaken off your sweetness,
failed to forget your gentle,
failed to threw away those pieces that you'd occupied inside my heart.
Knowing that you've suffered from many relationships but I did not do my best to loves you and made you disappointed, is my greatest of regret in my life at the moment.



I'm listening to the music that we love, it's sweet and sour like a glass of lemonade.
I can't deny myself that loves lemonade so much and nowhere to blame at.
Yes, I accepted the faith like you've told me and trying to be an independent person like what you've advised.
Thank you, for gave me such precious memories. I'm cherishing for what am I having now^^

The Born of S.A.M.I.S.M.E

Yes, I moved from Zen D World Blogspot.com~
As I said before at Zen D World, I had finally moved it to a brand new place!

<S.A.M.I.S.M.E > SAM IS ME > Sam Is Me @ www.janeyisme.blogspot.com

I'm feeling so happy to continue blogging! Wish me luck!
Cheers for the new blog!

Bravo! Yahoo! Banzai! Monami! Woohoo!